All day yesterday my people were keeping me fairly blocked. In the morning I had Elan wrap his wings around me cocoon style, he only does that when they want to keep me in stasis so I don't get hurt or mess things up. They told me that what was going to happen was between them and I could not have any part in it. They told me on Wednesday that Thursday was going to be a very good day for me, my whole life was going to change, I didn't think it would be Tony and CC because at that point I had no clue Tony was going to confront her, but he had me send him a text from an "anonymous" source from the website so it couldn't be traced, he played it up like it was from her ex, which was plausible, the text said, christine's been on okcupid today, not the first time this week. He showed that to her on his phone and he said she went white. He told her they needed to talk and talk they did, for five and a half hours. I was so mad last night because he promised me he'd call and let me know how things went and I got a text around 11:30 that said I'm good, but tired, will call in the morning... which to me sounded like he wussed out and didn't want a lecture from me. And quite honestly, what I felt all night was their energy very intense feelings, pain, then calm then I'm reasonably sure they had sex and went to sleep... I was disappointed, but not surprised.
This morning he told me that she used her insecurities about him as her excuse, but also took some responsibility for not coming to him when she started to feel insecure in the first place, something apparently they had agreed she would do. As it stands right now, he's forgiven her, but he told her if she blindsides him one more time he will not give her any more chances. He told her he will not allow himself to be in any relationship without honesty. He told me he's never been more ready to walk away from her than he was yesterday and he truly believes the next time he will walk away.
When they talked, they talked about what she'd done, why, how it hurt him and I don't know some other stuff, but then... they talked about me... and he told her EVERYTHING!
I asked him if this was the point of the night that he threw me under the bus, and he asked if I really thought he'd do that. I said well when it comes to her, he's treated me in ways that are uncharacteristic so I wasn't sure. It wouldn't surprise me if he had. He said actually I talked you up, I told her you are an amazing woman, the most spiritually gifted person he's ever known, that I work hard, that no matter what pain I'm dealt, I deal with it, learn and have grown from the experience. He told her he admires me, he loves me and that I am his twin flame, not that I think he is my twin flame, he told her he IS my twin flame!!! He then went on to tell her what I believe about the 7 suns and him being a savior. She of course at this point asked him if he thought I was crazy, to which he said, I think her guides come up with some pretty crazy stuff at times but no he does not think I am crazy and that too many of my visions and insights come true. He told her what I believe about his and my destiny. She eventually told him she doesn't like me, she doesn't trust me, and she HATES that she and I have anything in common. He told her though he is unsure and uncomfortable with the savior thing, he doesn't think it is coincidence that two women came into his life at the exact moment, both with the name Christine, a form of christ, and both refusing to use the name. I pointed out, and both fighting for your soul, one for the dark one for the light. He said he knew that, but he couldn't tell her that. He went on to say that she hates that I've seen his soul.
He told me this morning that at one point last night she started balling her eyes out and it was because she realized she'd been looking for him her whole life. I have said that too him often, but when I heard she had said it I thought yes she has, but it's to play her part as betrayer, not to love him. My guides all around me in that moment lowered their heads like they were mourning. There is so much more to twin flames than merely a love story, I believe that deeply, and with so much at stake, there are therefore so many obstacles in our paths, but when we persevere, we will be blessed beyond our imaginations. I believe that to the depth of my soul. However I also believe that in the end tony and I will win. I had a vision this morning of the three of us on an old time steam engine that is headed perilously towards a ravine and a broken track. She and Tony are fighting, but I wasn't yelling for him to jump from the train, I knew he and I would be saved, I was yelling for her to get off the train before she was destroyed and I was hysterical trying to save her.
He's different today, he's more him than I've seen him since last year. He knows the path ahead, he told me she has his heart but she does not have his soul, and that he is not as heart blind as I think he is. He said this is the path we are all destined to walk and he's going to walk it no matter what lies ahead for him. What he doesn't realize is by being truthful with her where I'm concerned, I think this will be her undoing, especially when I get up there in four months. Right now she can comfort herself with the distance between us, but when I'm right there, I've already seen it, she self destructs. My guides are playing out this whole judas/jesus theme, but I know above all else that he and I will be okay no matter what we go through to get there. We have a destiny and he's more on board for that today then he ever has been. He said to me I leaned closer last night to accepting everything you've said than I ever have. I asked him what caused him to back off, he said, I haven't. And as I said, he's different today.
Do I wish I'd wakened this morning in a Tony/Cee Cee free world? Yes of course, but I have to be honest, this is all going exactly as my visions have foretold. I don't like how this is set to play out, but truth is, for her to betray him fully, he must love her fully and only through her betrayal will be become who he is to be. BUT I saw this afternoon that the pain and destruction I have seen may not be his, but hers. He may honestly just step into himself in that moment she does her final betrayal. I saw it today and he just "was".
Regardless, he lit the fuse last night, I felt that all night and even stronger today, he told me this morning that the biggest portion of their five hour conversation was that he told her about me and while he told her *everything* and claimed me as his twin flame to her, he also told her that his love for me is separate from what they have and he is able to hold both relationships equally. Which is true, I've seen him do it, but ultimately, she will self destruct and she will betray him again, but in the instant that she does it, he will accept it and forgive her, and he will become the whole of what he is.
Do I wish I'd wakened this morning in a Tony/Cee Cee free world? Yes of course, but I have to be honest, this is all going exactly as my visions have foretold. I don't like how this is set to play out, but truth is, for her to betray him fully, he must love her fully and only through her betrayal will be become who he is to be. BUT I saw this afternoon that the pain and destruction I have seen may not be his, but hers. He may honestly just step into himself in that moment she does her final betrayal. I saw it today and he just "was".
Regardless, he lit the fuse last night, I felt that all night and even stronger today, he told me this morning that the biggest portion of their five hour conversation was that he told her about me and while he told her *everything* and claimed me as his twin flame to her, he also told her that his love for me is separate from what they have and he is able to hold both relationships equally. Which is true, I've seen him do it, but ultimately, she will self destruct and she will betray him again, but in the instant that she does it, he will accept it and forgive her, and he will become the whole of what he is.
